second person

being the second person and always doing a second plan. "mengalah" ok if it just once twice or maybe third it's ok. but if that always happen oh ya it makes me so fed up. it feels like it's better to stay out there than stay in my house. and it build me to have a thinking like this "someday i must have my own house, my own car, then my own money. and i can do anything for that. i don't care with what i have to do. it has to be halal or not yeah (sometimes i forget about it ). it gonna be happen when i really really fed up for that. maybe i can hold now but one day i can't. i started to get a job. i don't care what it's gonna look like. and maybe i'm gonna take a fast way. married with someone who is really rich. all of them are being my obsession"